Tuesday, February 18, 2014

let me see your kapotasana

There she was Ashtanga Yoga Club Durham's sweet Aurelia.... minding her own business, engaging her bandhas, minding her breath, keeping the drisiti solid.


She hears the words that are being spoken often during the month of February  by David Garrigues' in his new shala at the Golden Sands Hotel in Kovalam India.....

"Let me see your kapotasana".... She thinks... Me?? 
There could be several other ashtangis he is speaking to... 
I will keep on going... 
Maybe he is asking  Lauren or Amber, or Michael to  do, or more like re-do kapotasana.  
BUT this time it is Aurelia's turn!



Go Aurleia Go!

I am so happy for you to be experiencing David Garriugues Kovalam Style!

I feel like you have gone off to college or something!

Learn lots. Eat some dosa for me.


xoxoxoxo

thank you Lauren aka Captain Kovalam for sending these photos



















Friday, January 31, 2014

31 days called January

it started  with a new moon.
new year's day savasana
on new year's day we got together for a silent group primary series. It was very interesting, very soothing . We stayed together via our breath.
I dragged my husband out to a new year's day party the next town over. we spun Ganesha's wheel.


New Year's Day 


Later that evening my little doggie Antonio got sick.  We took him to the emergency vet where we found out he had next to no platelets. Later later that night we were burying him in the backyard. Tough first day. happy new year?
rest in peace my sweet boy



Little Man being lonely


the next week is a bit of a blur....
the next week also a blur....
I did yoga, I taught yoga, I walked little man.


my crew
my husband's birth day is January 18th.

 So, after a rousing saturday morning led primary in our adorable ashtanga studio we rushed off to the local animal shelter and adapted a little wreck of a malnourished  big eared chihuahua. Not to replace Antonio, but to be a pal to our other chihuahua who was sulking around without his big bro.
the big eared guy in cage P4
                                                                                               













For a special birthday dinner I took husband to a super great Japanese restaurant  Yamazushi .We usually eat wolf style. Fast. We are done before others begin. This Japanese meal was smooth and well paced.  Purposefully calming. Taking time to be with the lovingly prepared food was somehow transforming. I remember falling  in love with Nikos again during the evening.
we even put on fancy clothes



Meanwhile that same evening in NYC, my dear friend Joanna slips off a rock and lands in such a way that she shatters her talus bone. This slip from the rock, this accident, is also going to be transforming, and I will once again fall in love with Joanna all over again too.
somewhere in NYC



At this very moment, January 31st, my husband is being led through the primary series by Eddie Stern in Richmond Virginia. I was looking forward to going with him on an ashtanga road trip to my ashtanga buddy Alicia Golden's studio Ashtanga Yoga Richmond.  I was looking forward to dedicating a weekend to my practice and spending time with ashtangis.

I am here in Durham. Little  Man to my left and Skeeter to my right on our couch at home. I have stayed here in Durham to care for my friend Joanna. She has come here to  get medical attention  and rest and mend and do chihuahua pranyama.

I can dedicate my weekend to my practice and spend time with ashtangis right here 

january is coming to a close 
new moon to new moon
 it was a hell of a ride
 i have never felt so blessed in all my life

#chihuahuapranyama


Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Kovalam Countdown

This time last year I was preparing for my first trip to India to study ashtanga with my teacher  David Garrigues.

Going to India for the first time was so exciting, being in India was so incredible-
The sights, smells, sounds. Feet on the ground, close to the earth, that was the feeling, the idea, the part of India that has stuck with me. The feet of india-bare feet, dog feet, elephant feet, rickshaw feet, my feet crouching down to buy vegetables.....

Here are some tips for getting ready for Kovalam, and also tips for getting your feet on the ground ASAP once you are there.

stuff to pack:
band aids (called plasters) there will be lots of walking
bug repellant that you can where for sleeping
sturdy yoga mat and blanket/rug the ones for sale in Kovalam are the cheap sucky ones
bathing suit or two
summer type clothes
super comfy walking shoes that  you will not care about trashing
at least 2 super cute little and yet powerful flashlights.

you will need two because, someone will lose or forget theirs, and you can give them one.
So bring 3 so you will have a back up even after you give one away.

Other than that, you won't need much.Pack clothes and stuff that you can leave behind because your suit case will be filled with stuff you get in INDIA!!


Things you must do when in Kovalam

get to a festival or two
scrub elephants
eat brunch at the Leela Hotel
ride a crowded bus into Trivandrum
ride an even MORE crowded bus home from Trivandrum
ride a train, a super crowded one
buy a tiny coffee on the train
ride a rickshaw in crazy  traffic
drink Limca
purchase garland for the shala
store on the walk to the shala
eat dosa often
get a dress or shirt made for you
get a pair of sandals made for you
drink coffee at Puppies Cafe(best coffee on the beach)

look up at the moon! the man up there looks different

get your own money guy, trade your dollars for the rupees with your special money guy. you need your own money guy so that when other money guys try and get your to change money with then you say, "I have a money guy."

the same goes for beach chair guys. Lauren will handle the beach chair situation, she already has a beach chair guy. Follow her lead, she is the senior Kovalamer.

Things you must not do
do not buy fruit from the beach ladies
do not even look at the guys selling the big scarves. no!
do not have the eye contact with the vendors as they sit on their stoops, unless you feel like actually shopping.
do not pay the price the merchant  first states, barter... then barter some more...
do not drink the water. If you can, get a bubbler so you don't have to buy so many frigging bottles of water.



Mostly get over there and get ready to do some yoga!!!

I will not be making the trip this year, but I hope you have such a great time and learn SO MUCH that you go in 2015.


faulkner and the babies
till then.....

kiss a few elephants for me.
























Monday, January 6, 2014

no shoes required

or yoga is wonderful....
what are you calling yoga if it is so wonderful?? the yoga I have come to know is demanding, difficult, sometimes wonderful, sometimes not wonderful at all.


is it wrong of me to consider vinyasa flow classes to be more like an aerobics class, more like a fitness craze than "real" yoga?  Is it "real" yoga if it is done once a week? Is it "real" yoga if the person is not interested in the spiritual aspect of the disciple? is it real yoga if it is wonderful?
When did I get to be the keeper of the  "real"yoga?.....

 Shakespeare said via the voice of Juliette on the balcony about her  Romeo "A rose by any other name would smell as sweet", this is true, but if it is not a rose, calling it a rose does not make it a rose.  People who have never seen a real rose, when seeing and smelling the non-rose collection of matter being falsely called rose will be mislead by the naming.

And that is the situation going on here in my town. We have a great deal of  air-conditioned, or super heated,  Madonna music cranking, athletes clapping for each other due to executing a nice bit of athleticism  90 minute gatherings with a 15 dollar cover charge masquerading under the name of yoga.

areobics with a yoga influenced approach, yoga type of exercise class, stretching and strength training no shoes required....

but please do not call it yoga! yoga is yoga, it is not almost yoga, it is yoga.  So how does a person who has never smelled or tasted or seen or done yoga know if it is really yoga?


when did I get to be the keeper of what yoga is? when did I start to care about who calls what/what?
WWSKPJD? Nancy Gilgoff and David Williams have both stated, in different settings at different times, for different reasons that Pattabhi Jois told them,  "Just to hear the WORD yoga in this lifetime is a blessing."
We are truly blessed. That is wonderful.
I will now try to pull this piece together... the only way i know yoga is from yoga.
the yoga i know from yoga is demanding. the yoga i know from yoga is relentless.
the yoga i know from yoga is so hard. the yoga i know from yoga is what it is.

yoga is known from yoga







Wednesday, November 20, 2013

the big little man shoot

FINALLY
little man assisting Kevin in upside down lotus

 A chihuahua (of mixed origin) pound puppy type of dog adjustment clinic calendar.


it is sort of a shout out to Mr. Winkle!




and sort of a sarcastic pre-emptive balm to the  onslaught of dog yoga, cat yoga, horse yoga calendars I see in the everywhere!









JO and the little in halasana

mika and the little guy
Little Man is the official  pound puppy super star

Ellen O  pet photographer and all around animal lover is our photographer
ellen, littleman and rich



ashtanga yoga club durham members are the sweaty models doing the yoga.

25% of proceeds go to the Durham Animal Shelter  from where Little Man was adopted

most of our yoga clothes are stained or torn or old or all three.

hair styled by  several hours of  yoga.


anastasia getting the double assist
dalia getting the house specialty savasana assist


no joke! 2014 with a little help from little man calendar coming soon….



Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Children of the Burnt Seeds


Guruji is my teacher's teacher.
My teacher is certified to teach ashtanga by Guruji, and by Guruji I mean  Sri K.  Pattabhi Jois.

The ashtangis that were/are certified by Guruji, are you teaching the way Guruji taught you?
What does that mean?
From what I gather, and I gather a great deal, Guruji taught each of you differently.

He carried Nancy Gilgoff through  the poses.
He had David Williams  practice hard twice a day.
He gave Tim Miller Third in just a few months.
He doted on some, he ignored others....

Me and my elephant friend
yes, that is a Bertrand Russell shirt 

He taught each of these certified teachers  a different way because his teaching incorporated the ability to teach to what each person needed.

To teach like Guruji does not mean to teach everyone who shows up the exact same things and way and stuff Guruji taught you, but rather to teach each person that shows up exactly what that person needs......
Guruji is like an elephant. Each certified teacher seems to have gotten a different part of that elephant.

They see Guruji through their aperture. That must be awesome, and intense and such a fantastic view.
What a blessing to have been among the people Guruji considered his students. There are so many Guruji stories. I do my best to gather these stories.

Some of Guruji's students I have studied with:

David Williams is a native of North Carolina, and so when he comes home to visit his parents we try and get him to give us a class. We either get in our cars and drive to Greensboro or we get him to come to us, but the thing is we dig him and want to spend time with him. He loves the ashtanga yoga. Guruji loved ashtanga.

Annie (Grover) Pace was for many years  my primary teacher. She was the first  certified teacher I ever met. I remember the exact date because Hurricane Fran had just visited us, late summer 1996.  I have learned so very much from Annie. She has taught many workshops  here in our town. I have traveled to  Denver Colorado to study with her before she had her  Shala,  I have been to  her Crestone Shala.  I have practiced next to her, I have eaten her ghee. She showed me a version of Guruji's teaching that is very personal, very demanding. Guruji was a real person. Guruji was very loving and demanding too.

Nancy Gilgoff is considered by many yogis in my area to be a primary influence to them, so I wanted to meet her. My husband and I went to her week long primary series adjustment clinic in Vermont. I want to go to her studio in Hawaii too. She is rather drapey, I mean I can see back in time and see Guruji carrying her weight. She teaches  how Guruj taught her. Guruji did not turn away the weak, as long as they were not lazy. Anyone can do ashtanga, except lazy people.

Tim Miller has  been to Durham many times.  I had the honor of driving him around in my 1987 Ford F150. I have also gone up to Charlotsville many times for his week long primary series intensives and weekend workshops in various cities too many times to count. Tim somehow unites us. There is a galvanizing force in Tim. We love Tim. Guruji brought many different kinds, types and styles of people together to speak the same language, the language of ashtanga. We love Guruji.

Chuck Miller and Maty Ezarty, back when they where Chuck and Maty, came  to town many times and I took classes from them each and everytime. Maty was far more detail oriented. I learned so much from her about the yoga actual, the alignment, the positioning, the amount of effort needed to not sink. Guruji was clear.

From Chuck I got .... my mind blown!  I somehow got Chuck to lunch or a tea, just him and me, and got him talking about  life and ashtanga, and how  the Santa Monica yoga scene first came into being. He introduced me to the concept of the Burnt Seed.  To be a burnt seed is to be fully evolved, it is to not need another go round. there will be no more vritis.... Guruji was a  Sanscrit scholar. Guruji was deep.


Lauren
I have seriously slowed down on attending workshops from this teacher and that teacher because I have my teacher and I get to honker down with that one. I do acknolwedge that the many, many years of gathering of the unique  perspectives, the unique manifestations of Gurujis influence on the people that spent time directly under his influence is part of what it means to me to be a link in this lineage.  I have come to know Guruji through these apertures.

Here are few more teachers I have studied  with very briefly, a weekend, a mysore class, an intensive teacher training. Ashtanga. This is by no means an exhaustive list.
David Garrigues and Faulkner
during his first visit to
my sweet little yoga studio
Ashtanga Yoga Club Durham
mural by Laura Farrow 2010


Lino Miele**
David Swenson
Melanie Fawer
Eddie Stern
Steve Dwelley
Michael Hamilton
Christine Hoar
Matthew Sweeney

And of course David Garrigues, my teacher.

I have also taken classes and workshops from many students that are authorized by Guruji.

Each of these teachers shared a perspective of Guruji's teachings.

I call the students of these teachers the Children of the Burnt Seeds because these teachers are the Burnt Seeds. They are not allowed to authorize or certify us to teach.** Only Guruji's grandson can authorize or certify someone to teach, but Sharath is not my teacher. This burnt seed thing hurts my ashtanga feelings.... Feelings aside, I believe the Burnt Seedness of ashtanga's senior teachers disrespects Guruji by warping the trajectory of the ashtanga yoga lineage.

Statements such as this one from a blog about mysore style ashtanga yoga, concerning the idea of being a direct part of the lineage....

" I clearly favor the traditional lineage and Sharath Jois but others have found great love for other teachers such as Richard Freeman or Tim Miller." Aliya Weise
here is the blog piece I am referencing as an example
the word BUT.... I would ask people studying with Sharath to use the word  AND.

This statement somehow, or perhaps directly infers, with the BUT, that to study under Richard Freeman or Tim Miller is to study outside of the traditional lineage. My heart quickens, I feel threatened, undervalued. How could it be okay to have students of Richard and Tim, Nancy, David, David, Christine, David etc... be considered students that are choosing to be not in favor of the traditional lineage of Ashtanga! We are in favor of the traditional lineage of ashtanga yoga, in fact, we ARE the traditional lineage of ashtanga yoga. We are, at the very least, an aspect of the direct lineage!

What level of parampara would we be experiencing if when Guruji passed, we severed our connection from our teacher and switched over to Sharath because well... Why would that even be considered??

In a very real way he, Sri K. Pattabhi Jois, IS my teacher. In a very real way I have an amazing bird's eye view of Guruji and his teachings.  I can see  that his teaching style was  BIG. I can even say that I do my best to teach how he taught his students. I am unable to claim any definitive "Guruji told me this way",  "The left hand holds the right", "Hold the big toe", "The dristi is the nose in this pose". I have been spared the particulars and instead see the over arching teaching style.  He taught them all differently. He taught them all what and how they needed to be taught. He taught them all ashtanga.

We, the Children of the Burnt Seeds  are an important part of the ashtanga lineage. I am trying to write us back into the living tradition of Ashtanga Vinyasa Yoga as taught by Sri K. Pattabhi Jois.

Our perspective matters. Our perspective includes Guruji because Guruji taught our teachers. We are links in the chain of instruction that is alive and well in us. We have spent many  years with our experienced teachers. We are fit to  receive knowledge. We are direct lineaging right now!

I went up to meet Guruji at the Puck Building in NYC in 2000. I had been studying ashtanga for many years at this point, and I was way beyond excited to meet Guruji. He taught a large group of perhaps 200 people. He led us through the primary series, and a second group through the intermediate series!!   I did not think for even one second that this meant that Guruji intended for me to think I should teach large groups by calling out the primary series. I knew, I thought we all knew it was a service he was doing for us, it was a way for us to meet him. We needed to meet him. We had been told by our teachers to meet him!

For over 20 years I have been studying, doing, thinking about, falling in and out of love with Ashtanga.
I teach a morning mysore  ashtanga program, in obscurity, in a small studio in the attic of my home.
I aim to continue this for many more years. If you ever find your way to Durham, North Carolina you are welcome to come take class. 
Guruji taught me this....


JO

scrubbing Mina

feeding the baby
how tired is the 6 blind men and the elephant thing?


pretty tired!!


Janelle and the Ganesha of YogaSpot in Durham NC
painted byLaura Farrow in 1995


 **Lino has taken the path of action and grants his dedicated students a different title than burnt seed.


I am really hoping that the Burnt Seeds and the Children of the Burnt Seeds can hold onto the big picture, the full elephant. 

It is with the desire to bring attention to awareness of our connection to Self and so of course, to each other, that I write and post this piece. 




Thursday, August 8, 2013

Welcome Back

The Welcome Back Practice.

If you have not had a welcome back practice well then.... either you have been practicing only one day so far, or well ... self report continues to be unreliable.


It's okay, it's fine, it's how it is. Welcome Back.

The reasons for taking some time off practice are as varied as the people that take the time.

Ms. Faulkner and some of her fantastic reasons!
A smattering of my personal longer than a week  reasons: Grad school while also working a 60 hour work week as a special education public school teacher, Noro virus, vertigo, depression, .....

Some of my friends have a slightly more interesting items on the list: Getting married and going on an adventure  type of honeymoon, giving birth,  remodeling a house from the bare bones to a thing of livable beauty, making a movie, canoeing the amazon.....
can't wait to meet this little reason

No matter the reasons, when it is time to get back to practice, you are welcome back to practice!

  I have  been to many AA meetings, and at nearly every one, someone gets a white chip.  The white chip signifies the decision to live sober; to live sober one day at a time, to start the program.  Often, the white chip signifies a re-making of the decision, and  a re-starting the program. NO MATTER WHAT! The person getting the white chip is welcome and welcomed back. "Keep coming back!"
There are the very few people who get that one white chip and then live happily sober ever after. They are of course blessed. They work their program and the results are obvious. There are the "chronic" white chippers. They keep needing the re-starting because they drank again.  Many people with many years of sobriety were at one point  the chronic type of white chippers.  They are also blessed because they kept coming back.They used to  need what seemed like an inordinate amount of support, and now they are the backbone of the support.


In a way, EVERY practice is a welcome back practice. Every day when I step on my mat is a new day.

Yesterday was a close call. I really almost did not make it to my mat. I had the list going in my head;  I was hungry, I was tired, I was  fine with taking a day off, the new moon was still looking awfully new, I needed to do some other stuff....But thank goodness I have a habit of practicing, an urge to practice, an impulse to break away for the reasons to not practice. I set the intention of doing the primary series as it is, no dinking around. It was so lovely!  It was so  light. It was like the best thing that had ever happened to me. I was so grateful for the experience. It had been a very close call.

Today I was able to get on my mat in my own house without a teacher watching over me.  No joke I think I figured out ekabaddha bakasana A today!! I have been working on that pose for a little over a year. Also no joke, I believe that the primary series   I did the day before pointed the way to the eka A of today.

I have invited a few yogis to come practice with me tomorrow at 7 am.

You are welcome to join us. 
My studio has a strong welcome back policy in effect.